Obsessing....

Over the past few weeks, I've found myself obsessing over minor things which, for some illogical reason, lead me to believe I'm completely unprepared for this baby. Now, when I say obsessing, I mean that's literally all I can think about until I buy or organize whatever the focal point of the moment is.

On the first occurance it was sheet savers, and it was probably a month ago .... I decided one day that I couldn't possibly have this baby yet because we hadn't bought these little changing pad/sheet saver things that someone in babies r us recommended we use. Logically I know that they aren't essential.... but we (yes, Jeff too. Why he goes along with my neurosis, I'm not sure.) made a special trip to the store just to buy those.

Then it was a shelf to store the baby books on. Let me point out that we have exactly 6 baby books .... not exactly tough to find a place for them. But off we went to Lowe's and Jeff hung the shelf for me last week.... thankfully, the baby books now have a home ... phew!... close call!

Last week it was the "coming home outfit". Now I'm not one to go and drop $50 or $100 on a little dress or whatever that baby will probably poop or spit up on before we even take her picture in it. So all the little boutique shops we looked at were out (seriously? People spend that much on clothes that the baby will outgrow in 2 weeks?) and we didn't find anything at babies r us that we liked - or I should probably say "agreed on". So we we ended up at Baby Depot, which is quite possibly my new favorite place to buy baby stuff. CUTE clothes for not so much money!!!! We got a cute little preemie dress and hat, and another backup dress in newborn size, all for about 1/4 of the price of some of the boutiques we've been too. Baby won't have to come home naked!-- like that was ever an issue?

This weekend it was onsies and t-shirts. This list I found online or in one of my books, I don't even remember where, said we needed these little side snap tshirts and a certain number of onsies. Well, upon organizing the clothes we have the other night, I found that we had NO tshirts and only a couple of onsies in premie,newborn, or 0-3month size! Gasp!!! So off to walmart we went, where we found onsies, but no tshirts!!!! oh no!!!!

Sunday night it was newborn diapers. I was organizing the changing table and putting things in my little storage baskets and wanted to fill one with diapers (we still may do cloth, depending on whether the diaper service we found is up and running by then, but we're planning to start with disposables and possibly graduate to cloth later). So I went to our closet where we've been stashing the diapers and wipes we've been buying occassionally with coupons we've found, and "oh my gosh, we have NO newborn diapers!!!!!!!" So I detoured to Sam's on the way home from work yesterday, only to find they didn't have any newborn sized diapers. After dinner, off to Walmart and JCPenny's (still in search of those elusive side snap tshirts) we went. We got the newborn diapers, a tub for the baby wipes (we had a box of 648 baby wipes, but no tub to put them in --- that one was all Jeff--- someone told him you could never have too many wipes, so that's what he decided we needed to be prepared for baby about 3 months ago), and found some side snap tshirts as well as some others that just pull over the head. Crisis averted.

Now, I've read that the maternal brain shrinks by something like 3% in third trimester. Is this what's happening? Am I getting stupid and expressing it through these crazy obsessions or just developing OCD worse than what I usually exhibit? Is this part of that crazy nesting thing they say will happen as you approach the end of pregnancy? Logically I know I'm behaving ridiculously, but I can't seem to stop. I wonder what will be next?

Poor Jeff. Bless his heart for his ability to smile, say "yes dear" and go right along with my neurosis.